First of all I would like to thank Endee and Fiona for leaving me messages in a world where no one seems to be leaving anymore. Today wasn't too bad a day. I'm stupid, I went and spoilt it tonight. This morning I had 3 periods free, as Miss Chong wasn't here and i had a break after her lecture. I sat at the single table, yes, alone, and I watched the world go by. I saw Jeanetta, who bought me a whole tube of the Juicefuls sweet that I give her everyday (one...not tube, one sweet). Then I gave her my name again. She forgot and has been trying to remember for quite some time. You would think that people would be able to remember 'Erwin' as it's an English name, but no... I sat there and people filed into the cafeteria, and then this girl who I still think is a major hottie sat down at this table (-2 2) from me and well, I started thinking that she was the one. I mean, she's like super-gorgeous and probably many people have felt the same way, but well...I wrote a poem that I still haven't completed, it's a really superficial poem, because I don't know her at all (though reports have been coming in that she's a very nice girl and all). Well, for half-the-day I felt as though I was in love with her. Then I saw her coming out of GP class and then it didn't seem like I had any genuine feelings for her, I mean, you need to get to know a girl first before falling in love with her, you know. So she came out of her class, and then I saw Hui, or did I see Hui first? No matter, she smiled at me, I smiled back, and then she came from the other side of the third level to walk to her locker and she hit me, I wait a few moments, contemplating it and I go over to her at her locker to tell her about it. Alright, she was honest about it, and said that it was a good choice, but um, technically impossible as the type that will look good on her would be a Harvard graduate with loads of cash, or something along those lines and those of You're-Ugly-Can't-Get-Anyone-Decent. So yeah, information confirmed and mission aborted, but it still looks good and tempting.
Next thing: This so sucks, it's like a surprise but well, not one that I honestly agree with myself about. How come Izaac has a copy of "About A Boy"? Now! At this time? Sorry, it's just that I would have loved to have someone purchase the book after reading my blog, but I don't think he knew about before I gave the book to Hui. Thought 2: Did she give it to him. I know it's just a book, but come on, IF, I mean only e.g., that someone gave you their favourite book and you kinda passed it along to someone else and told them to read it, then it seems quite crappy, I know it looks plain on the whole, but come on, I gave the book hoping that she might read it. I'm not saying that she did give it to him (but even if she did, it's none of my business), and even if she didn't, damn, he has THE BOOK. Heh, I'm so doing this over-reacting thing right. I saw the book and this major grin plastered itself on my face. Izaac was looking at me, but I wasn't even looking at him, he seemed to have blurred out a little and then all I focused on was the book and the colourful bookmarks and the fact that I had all these thoughts going through my brain, I couldn't even think straight. Heh, I'm so so so doing this over-reacting thing excellently. Never mind, just needed to get that off my chest. It's just something that I put in my head telling myself to type it out and then the feeling passes. Nothing angers me, only a minute irritation. A passing moment. Splendid.
I joined photography, and I think I might join the Drama Club too, despite the fact that they're both groups. I think I might just manage to make it into the Photography Society Exco, and I think the JC1s there are really crappy. I mean, it's a hasty decision and all, but come on, they're mostly all these chinese-speaking people who laugh at the slightest damn thing. I know it's bad to have this feeling, and I attribute it to not knowing them better, but seriously, I'm not usually wrong. It's going to be very hard working with them. I think the only reason I'm in photography is because I want to become a photojournalist. Hopefully, I can get a camera and then work in this society well. I want to take beautiful pictures well, I want to dazzle the world, enthrall the masses, make them fall in love with my photos, and be paid big bucks just to be able to take still frames of people. I volunteered for this Friday's Cefeteria photo-taking, and I've got to share the duty with this other guy who again, is a total Chi-na. Hopefully, he'll prove me wrong. Let's do this. Drama. Hmmm...think think think think...
Sorry Lord for my sins, bless me please and make me clean.
Haloed,
Erwin Nah.
